Yeah. So I'm writing after being kicked out of her place. I have been left so drunk, so horny and so unsatisfied. No porn can help me now. She told me that I would be staying over. When we got to her place she proceeded to show me every hot lesbian sex scene from the L word and fed me vodka loaded beverages. So she got me all hot and bothered and then out of nowhere said, "It's time for you to go home." I didn't even do anything. I'm not serious about this girl and she probably knows it. It's like I have to fully commit to her to have any fun. Why is it so hard to have a little sex between friends, experiment whathaveyou without being serious. I'm really not ready for marriage. I'm really turned off by the idea of committing myself to someone, I feel like I have to give up a lot of my independence and compromise and I am really happy with the way my life is right now and I don't want to sacrifice my happiness to fuss over some stupid girl who's going to call me every second of the day and harass me. No Thank You! Especially if I have to wait a dozen dates before I can get any action. She is not interested in my kind of sex. Her idea of good sex sounds really boring. It's ridiculous that I'm even bothering with this girl.
So I'm slowly getting past all the bad shit that happen to me and I am finally ready to go out there and explore myself with someone. So I have all those years of sexual energy trapped inside and nowhere to release it. I mean I love women, physically. I just feel like I've been so jerked around lately by them. Women are so unnecessarily complicated. I deserve some honesty here. I'm so sick of this shit.
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