So I do like women.

Oh man, I was such a weirdo freak tonight. I've been acting strange this past week. I believe it may have something to do with Violet coming back. As soon as I saw her I just cheered, multiple times, "yay you're back." and then she said it right back to me, in the same stupid way. ha!

So I just had to sit next to her at the bar tonight. I was acting so weird and nervous. I was talking a lot, yet I was silly and shy. I've been so excited its embarrassing. It's like I suddenly remembered, Oh I definitely like women. There is no other girl on this league that I get so weird around. There has to be something gay about her somewhere, 'cause I know I wouldn't be this insane around a straight girl.

So even if I could have her for an evening (Shad wants her to "experiment" and she has chosen me) I wouldn't know what the hell to do. I don't actually think that we connect on a social level. It would just be too strange and awkward. I wonder if everyone else picked up on how weird I am around her, or if it's just my own paranoia. Wow, it's a very powerful feeling. I think I need to keep some distance until I'm used to her being back.

It sux to be so out of control around her, but it's also pretty awesome that she can make me feel that way.