Alright so I have been exploring alternative relationships.
This young man, Lovinsky, claims he is Polyamorous, which means that he does not commit to anyone and dates multiple people at once (it's not cheating because he's open about it).
I am learning about this poly thing, so I am dating poly people to try to understand it and see if I am poly myself. I know some very awesome poly people, so I think he's just the bad kind...
He made a very poor impression. He talked about himself the entire time and did not care who I was, probably didn't think I had anything to say. He was just so way above me, smarter and more advanced. That's not true but that is how he acted. It's funny that the last guy I went out with, Dave, acted the same way and talk about himself so much. Is it men being so damned sexist and thinking women are all just dumb blondes or is it these men?
I LEARNED: Lovinsky only has lovers that he has sex with and then gets bored of and moves on. The reason why he gets so bored is because he was never interested in anyone but himself. He loves to hear himself talk and never wants to change. He doesn't want to truly learn about me or anyone, or learn about himself, be changed by someone. The resistance toward being influenced by someone is what makes him bored. He cares only about himself and seems to use others for sex.
I WAS DIFFERENT: I let him talk and asked him about his life. I let myself be affected by him. I thought, "Maybe he could open my mind to new possibilities." Maybe there is something I can learn from him, I could show him. We can share in our experiences and even relate to each other through them. Maybe if we worked together we could share our feelings and and understand our lives better. We can sympathize with our struggles, be there when the other person is feeling really bad. And grow stronger together. And we would a form a bond that would become indestructible and last our entire lives.
WHY IS THAT SO HARD TO FIND?
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