Experiment: I need to motify

Yeah, so the experiment of me not masturbating for a week failed, but not entirely. I have now pushed it down to once every other day. It's not that I think anything is morally wrong with pleasing yourself, it is the fact that it cures a lack of connectedness that I need to find by other means.

In tribal terms, if I do less of the "drug and trance and orgy" thing to myself, I will be forced to seek this elsewhere, in forms that aren't so superficial or self perpetuating.

I think I'll seek out some queer communities, I was thinking of joining this gay temple downtown, I usually like the queer Jews anyway. It's a liberal enough place that it wouldn't revolve around religion so much as be an open place to be Jewish and gay. They have some classes on the Kabbala and I would love to learn more about these alternative interpretations of the text.